Mind In A Mess...

Got Accepted By One Of The Local Company...

And Were Treated Kindly...

Was Told That It Was One Of The Top Research Organisation In Singapore...

It Was Only My First Try...

And I Got In...

Everything Had Been Arranged Prefectly...

Even Application To The Headquarters Had Been...

Signed...

Confirmed...

But...

I Don't Know One Thing For Sure...

Is It Because I'm Not Satisfied Or?

Am I Just Plainly Stupid...

As...

I Decided To Withdraw From It...

I've Got My Reasons To It...

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Overseas Internship

Decided To Try For A Place Somewhere Overseas...

Visiting Third World Countries For OSIP Had Always Been What I Wanted...

Eager To See How People Live...

And...

How's The Enviroment...

But Now...

It's Different...

I Got In...

And I'm In A Dilema...

Whether To Stay Or To Leave...

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Recieved An Acceptance Email From A Design Firm Overseas...

Mexico...

The Place Where I'll Be Going The End Of This Month...

With My Three Other Friends...

Soon...

I Think A Lot Before Choosing To Go...

I Had The Betray Feeling Inside Me...

I Think I Let The Local Company Down...

Seriously...

I Hated That...

I Don't Know Is It Alright To Hate Myself For That...

Cause I Hated People Who Betrays...

Everything Just Seem Settled For The Trip...

Left...

The School's Agreement...

Air Ticket Per Head...

Around 3000 Bucks...

The School Will Only Be Subsidising Only 1k Capped If Possible...

And It All Depends On The School Now...

The Rest Will Be Cleared Personally...

But It's Still Worth It Afterall...

I Wanted To Make Good Use Of This Time...

I Will Try To Work Harder...

I Must Be More Independent Than Before...

I Can't Be Like Myself Now...

I Need To Change...

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The Trip There Seems Worrying...

I'm Worried...

Worried For My Parents...

Worried About How Worried They Will Be...

I Don't Want Them To Worry Bout Me...

Somehow...

Because Of This...

I Feel Like Opting Out For The Trip There...

And I'm Seriously In A Dilema...

But There's No Time For Opting Out...

Three Weeks...

Will Be The Time Left Given For Us To Settle Everything...

Mexico...

A Third World Country...

Full Of Dangers...

I Truly Understand How They Feel About It...

But...

I Wished To Get That Kind Of Exposure...

I Wanted To Get Independent...

I Wished To Make Everything Alright For Them...

For Everyone...

Hope Everything Will Be Alright...

Smile